Theme song

I hate that i gave you my favorite song, that i attached this song to are relationship and i knew what i was doing when i did it but i did it anyways being the self distructer that i am. i play it over and over again thinking the more i play it the less i think about that thing we had, the things we did, the things i said, and the little bit you said. i am my own prisoner of war, i kind of low key wish someone would just run in my room and unplug this damn surround sound from the wall, or that you would knock on my patio window?? But if i take a deeper look at why i feel like someone is tugging on my heart and playing kick ball in my stomach... is it because i miss you or because i miss the feeling of me and you, the feeling i got from saying i'm in a relationship and i love my man, in that case i can find someone to fill that whole with the quickness... i mean i don't want to be a lire i cant just say i'm in a relationship........ but if its you that i miss, your presence, your touch, your smell, your southern draw, regardless of the way you treated me, to the emptiness i had came so accustomed to at night, no one can replace that... do i want someone to replace that? do i really want you back? no, even though tears are lining up in my eyes to parachute down to the ground and this song gives me chills when i here it i know i'm worth more then what you put me threw so i push on until